From a mom perspective, I see her misshapen overgrown parts too. I hear her breathing throughout the night as resistance snores air into the room around her. Then her chest moves, but no air circulates. I watch closely. After two breathless chest heaves, she gasps, maintaining … [Read more...]
When You Feel Different From Everyone Else
My personality always felt like a handicap. Last week, while rummaging through the storage room, I unearthed journals from my teen years. The old personality that repulsed me all those years ago, gawked at me from the pages. At 40 years old, I should want to cuddle that teen in … [Read more...]
Your Secrets are Safe with God
My bare ring finger and bulging belly were a dead give away. At church the inevitable side eye and behind the back whispers crushed my tender and hormonal heart. I knew the side eyes and whispers existed, because I would have done the same to someone else in my circumstance. I … [Read more...]
Your Body is Not Your Enemy
As the light flashes green my foot leans into the pedal. But the aerodynamic steel machine hesitates. Then, in an instant, it heaves forward, jolting my upper body into the steering wheel. My cheeks flush with heat. I bang my fist on the dashboard of my second rental car this … [Read more...]
Fasting Food for People with Eating Issues
It was sudden and soundless. My body laid back against the cool wall and slid to the floor. My eyes finally peeled open as Judah’s sandy tongue swiped my cheek. It took a few seconds for my brain to register what just happened. I know it was silent because, as I came to, my … [Read more...]