She can’t stand it anymore. The silence. The waiting. She has to go see for herself. It’s far away, but she knows her father-in-law will be there for the annual conference. And she knows his route. Her late husband took the same one. Or so he said. Over time she learned to … [Read more...]
Where’s God During the Pain of Pruning
From a mom perspective, I see her misshapen overgrown parts too. I hear her breathing throughout the night as resistance snores air into the room around her. Then her chest moves, but no air circulates. I watch closely. After two breathless chest heaves, she gasps, maintaining … [Read more...]
How to Reconnect with Your Body Without Shame
It’s late in the evening. Past the point of rational reactions. My request for her to brush her teeth elicits a spray of tears and chest heaving sobs. By this time, I am empty of empathy and can only think of snuggling up to my husband with a cup of decaf to watch “our … [Read more...]
When You Feel Different From Everyone Else
My personality always felt like a handicap. Last week, while rummaging through the storage room, I unearthed journals from my teen years. The old personality that repulsed me all those years ago, gawked at me from the pages. At 40 years old, I should want to cuddle that teen in … [Read more...]
Your Secrets are Safe with God
My bare ring finger and bulging belly were a dead give away. At church the inevitable side eye and behind the back whispers crushed my tender and hormonal heart. I knew the side eyes and whispers existed, because I would have done the same to someone else in my circumstance. I … [Read more...]